In my previous post, I discussed how admitting that I'm experiencing psychotic (schizophrenic) symptoms to a colleague relieved tension and helped me move on from the unpleasant experience. In my next post, I'll discuss how admitting something I didn't want to served to help me in my personal life. In this post, I'd like to talk about admitting a mistake in my decision making with work.
A few months back, I was on the cusp of entering a partnership agreement with a colleague of mine. At the time, I was struggling to find my place in my career, and I thought our deal could be the solution to that. As I began to get deeper and deeper into the thick of the work, I began to realize how much of a terrible fit it was for me.
I felt embarrassed. How could I back out of the deal that I committed myself to? I would look like such a jackass. At the same time, if I continued down this path, I would be absolutely miserable. The agreement was a substantial one — requiring at least 1-2 years of my dedication to the work.
"Shut Up and Eat It"
Those are the words I said to myself. I'm glad I did. I avoided long-term misery at the expense of potentially looking like a jackass. The thing is, I ended up looking good. My would-be partner was grateful that he avoided being in a partnership with someone whose head isn't in the game. He was glad I spoke up before substantial cash was invested and we were at a stage where I couldn't feel like I could go back.
All in all, I dodged a bullet and deflected a bullet away from my friend (would-be partner), as well as deflected a bullet away from my partner (living with a miserable person sucks). Honesty can hurt, but I've found that I'm saved far more often than I'm hurt.